Yesterday I went on my very first business trip. Don’t get all excited, it wasn’t luxurious and I had to travel coach, but there was something so exhilarating about it. It was like I reached the next step in my career where I can go to another office and represent my team. I felt like a kid in a candy store. So excited about so many different possibilities for my future.
I wouldn’t have been able to go on this trip without the help (and support) of DH. I’m usually the one who drops off the kids in the morning and picks them up at night. I give them dinner and put them to bed. DH did all of that and gave the kids baths too! It’s really encouraging to see how supportive he is of my career.
My meetings went so well that I was asked to come back next week. If I would be at a different place in my life I would’ve been on the train yesterday, but now i have so many different factors to take into consideration. While DH was great, he got to work late and had to leave early in order to be at daycare on time, which made me feel a little bad.
In my mind, I’m now playing an ugly game of tug-of-war. On one hand I want to be there for my family but on the other hand, I want to go. I know that my family is my ultimate priority and I have to be there for them, but at what point can I do something like this for myself? It’s not often I have the opportiniy to work on a project like this that spans over so many different departments, so the career-minded part of me really really really wants to go. However, the mom part of me says there isn’t even a question- of course I can’t go again.
So, do I take advantage of an awesome “me” opportunity or do I just forget about it because my role is to be there for my family? You’ll have to stay tuned…
Until next time,